STOPPING THE FIGHT...
FRENCH:
“Je suis en effet : « ‘caught’ or ‘wrapped up’ in the no longer needed ‘cellular memories’ that are coming to the surface to be released. » pour reprendre les termes exacts de ton message. Cela dure depuis des années, j’ai tout essayé : me battre à chaque seconde à coups d'efforts de volonté qui me laissent exténuée, psychothérapie, haptonomie, reiki, nettoyage des mémoires cellulaires*, avant de déclarer forfait et d’arrêter de me battre. J’ai donc décidé de donner la priorité à ce qui s’avère être le but de mon âme : traduire et diffuser sur Internet. Cela seulement me met en joie, je sais que c’est « juste », j'ai l’impression d’avoir du champagne qui coule dans mes veines.
Mais quelle frustration de « me traîner » au quotidien pour tout ce qui est des nécessités domestiques et de la vie sociale... Rien que pour moi-même : devoir faire des efforts surhumains pour tenter de me laver et de m’habiller le matin, pour tenter d’aller me régénérer dans la nature (la plage est à 5 minutes à pied de chez moi...), pour tenter de faire le minimum de courses alimentaires et de ménage... Je n’y parviens la plupart du temps pas... et me contente de rester cloîtrée chez moi devant mon ordinateur et de traduire, traduire et encore traduire. Ces mémoires cellulaires qui m’entravant comme une momie dans ses bandelettes, j’en connais « intellectuellement » un certain nombre, ce qui, bien sûr, ne m’avance à rien !!!
Alors voici ma question : Quand et comment se dénoueront mes bandelettes ? Quand et comment serai-je enfin « svelte, alerte, en pleine forme » afin d’expédier sans y penser les affaires courantes et de pouvoir mener une vie normalement « légère » (car je traîne aussi depuis une douzaine d'années un surpoids de 50 kg...) et spontanée ?”
ENGLISH:
I am indeed: «’caught’ or ‘wrapped up’ in the no longer needed ‘cellular memories’ that are coming to the surface to be released. » to take the exact terms of your message. It’s been going on for years, I tried everything : I fought each second with will’s blows of effort, which leave me exhausted, psychotherapy, haptonomy, reiki, clearing of cellular memories, before surrendering and to stop fighting. I have then decided to give priority to what seems to be the goal of my soul: to translate and diffuse on Internet. Only this gives me joy, I know it is “right,” it feels like I have champagne running through my veins.
But what frustration to “drag” myself daily for all these domestic necessities and social life... Just for myself : to have to make super human efforts to try to wash and dress in the morning, to attempt to re-generate in nature, (the beach is 5 minutes walking distance from home...) to attempt to do the minimum of food shopping and house cleaning. Most of the time I don’t make it... and I’m content to retreat at home in front of my computer, and to translate, translate and translate more. These cellular memories that hinder me like a mummy in its strips of cloth, I “intellectually” know of a certain number, (of memories) which of course does not help me forward !!!
So here is my question : When and how will my strips of cloth untie/unravel ? When and how will I finally be “svelte, alert, in great shape” in order to expedite without thinking the courant affairs and to be able to live a normally “light” and spontaneous life ? (because I’m pulling for a dozen years an overweight of 110 lbs...)
FEEDBACK:
We understand completely well what you have been experiencing and going through. There are many people going through much similar long-term experiences. We have been having our share of experiences also. The best part is, it is all worth it!
The surrendering and stopping the fighting was a good move on your part. Just allow all situations in your life and around you to be what it is. Allow them to flow through you and around you, be at ease with them. Only in this way things can change for you. When you fight ‘it,’ you are giving it more power over you. You would think it to be the other way around since most people preach that you need to fight in order to win anything worth winning.
This is an old paradigm that really was designed to provide you with much challenge. It is the hard way of doing things, which has not worked well in the first place. To do it the old way, you need much determination, will power and a strong reason for doing it. This is not for you. This type of battle is not for you at all.
Just ask for guidance, and allow it to present. The guidance may come in many forms, so be open, allow it to present in whatever way and form. Take the guidance and follow through with it. Also notice your thoughts and dialog with yourself. Notice what emotions come to the surface, feel them, recognize them, and then let them go. Do not judge or try to define yourself and what comes up. Don’t feel bad about anything, just notice it and then let it go. What was in your past is in the past, do not hold on to it. It’s time to say goodbye, to turn around and to move on ... Don’t feel guilty about any choices you may have made or not taken action on. Everything served. All the experiences brought you to this point. You now better understand the human condition. These experiences are to serve you to assist others. Start anew, be in the moment and you’ll see the difference.
Working on yourself better prepares you for things to come. Many in the world are asking for guidance to change their life experience, and you are an instrument for them. Be open and know that the process is beneficial and perfect...
In regards to your weight, we are seeing that food is being used by you to give a sense of comfort and as a filler for a sense of emptiness. The extra weight is also acting as a psychological shield for you, a way to somewhat isolate yourself from the world and yourself. That was the case until now. Now, this is changing. Notice your patterns, see things, feelings, emotions, circumstances and situations for what they are. Let go of the old ways of dealing with things and make new choices. You will see how quickly things change for you. Love the way you are, and allow the changes to come about. You are worthy... You are a beautiful being full of love to share...
You are doing great, keep up the great work! And know that we are here for you when you get stuck or lost.
With love,
Franco and Eveline